DOLL

 28 Feb, Sat 1:21am 

I just realised I last published on my blog exactly 1 year ago. I want to tell that girl who wrote such sad words that she should tell her younger self, "Look, we became an English teacher too."

Her younger self would be squealing in joy. 

I need to be awake at 6am as I have a full day of teaching ahead. But I am choked with emotion. 

5 months and 1 week since I left my previous job, I've finally received a full-time offer. These couple of months haven't been easy at all. I have doubted myself so many times. I have cried and I have ranted to God and I have surrendered to God. I told God, "God, Your way be done. Close the doors that are wrong for me, and open doors of opportunities for me." And God did. 

93 applications, and 10 interviews where I made it to the last round in 5, and withdrew from 2 other interviews, the war is finally over. I received a full-time offer at a fashion brand. 

God You walk before me. You know the paths and the ways meant for me. You see the dangers before me. When You saw me cry, You must have felt so pained. And You must have wished that I could hear You. That I could know of Your plans. That these pain were not in vain.  

I kept praying, and praying, and hurting, and praying. But I believe in You. 

Thank You for blessing me with a husband who loves me dearly, and a mom who always loves and supports me. Thank You for blessing me with the ability to love and give back to others too.

Thank You for loving me.